Day 1 of gratitude, grace and fear
Trying to only be solution-minded is easy or should I say hard, because right there in front of you is the problem.
the itch
the thorn
surely the easy thing to do is just pluck it out
But one of the things I learnt this year is to Stop, Judge, and then Act.
Actually, I think it was...
See!
Judge!
Act!
Lol, I remeber rolling my eyes when I first heard the notion. I thought it was absolutely silly.
I was raised to problem solve; you are useful when you are a problem solver
it makes sense at work too
in all the roles I find myself in, that is the main thing to do
solve the problem
be useful
be valuable
if you aren't, no one will want you
Crazy but true
subliminal?
I don't think so
so here she is, chasing her own tail, trying to do the best
be the best
have the best
show the best
know the best
even when there is no 'best'
How can there be no 'best'?
you see, there are times in life when you are not in competition with anyone
and all you have to do is be you
lol, I hear it too
'be your best self'
what does that even mean?
in comparison to what?
my good self?
my bad self
my lazy self?
awww... my lazy self
Gosh!
hand to heart
she is my favourite self
she loves to do nothing
absolutely nothing
nothing all the day long
all month long, all week long
lol
Where were we
Ah!
yes, Day 1 of gratitude, grace and fear
As the year rolls out
I want to say well done, not because you gave your best, but just because.
I am grateful to you, Abba for keeping my mind this year
You graced me with amazing people
hmm... a fear I would like to let go of?
'The fear of not being the best'
Hmm, I am not quite sure how to let this fear go, but I want to leave you something
so let's lean on grace instead
2 Cor 12:7-10 says Your grace Abba is enough for me
Your grace is enough to fill the emptiness that I so desperately try to pour man's praise and accolades into.
The AMPC version of 2 Cor 12:7-10 describes grace as God's lovingkindness, mercy and favour.
So lean on that,
learn to lean on that
Stop! and lean on that
If you do believe Jesus is your Lord and Saviour, He already did all the heavy lifting so lean on Him.
Cast your worries on Him
The need to perform
The need to be the best
The need to execute
Emphasis His Word as you pull down the nagging narrative that says you have not done enough or that you are not enough
Sometimes that is true. In some situations, more is definitely needed
More effort
more focus
more time
more attention
So even in the need for 'More' lean on Him
Do everything with Him
even the things that you think do not require Him
Find yourself in Him again
until you remember that you are His handiwork
So when the nagging thought attempts to devalue you
lean on Him
there is Grace for you
grace upon grace
Thank you for your grace Abba
Thank you for being more than enough
I drop this in your hands.
I have completely messed it up
But in You,I lean
I worsened it while trying to fix it and cover up my mess.
But here I am, running to you for safety like a toddler runs to a parent.
But because I am an adult, the guilt, shame anxiety and fear seemed to have outrun me.
I think they are heading towards you to complain and accuse me justly.
Safe to say there is no point in me continuing this race
Ha! It's best to give up now and turn back around
like a lost sheep
But no!
I choose to lean on You
to run towards You
because where cometh my help but from you
A child can always run back to a good father
so here i am
lol
Thank you for your grace
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